California McMillans

Brentwood has a lot of small business owners.  Everywhere has a lot of small business owners but we are a little farther from San Francisco and San Jose skew our economy somewhat.  It is so sad to see so many of them shut down or working minimally.  Restaurants are being creative, people are putting services online that they can, but they are still effected and many will be for months to come. It is so sad to see.  My heart aches or the anxiety it causes.  Danny and I felt a twinge of that.  A very, small twinge compared to others, but it just makes me sick to think of the people who are up at night stressed or scared. A stimulus package came out that I hope helps and gives relief.  I think in time, our economy will recover and in the long term it will be ok but sometimes that doesn't give immediate relief to moms and dads who are just trying to make ends meet. The coolest thing of it all is being aware and helping others in need.  Seeing people organize groups to help the seni

The pandemic of the Coronavirus.  I should have journaled better.  I am certain this will be placed in history books and the findings and results studied by all for how to deal with something similar in the future. Two weeks ago, life was pretty normal in the United States.  We knew there was a virus in China, we saw reports, it was becoming global.  We had an open house on Saturday to find tenants for our home, we signed the lease with the couple we chose on Sunday and Sunday night Governor Newsom announced everything would be shut down for 2 weeks except for essentials. Later that night, a letter was sent out to dentists stating they recommended shut down their offices for 2 weeks to preserve masks and help slow the spread for all non-urgent needs.  Everyone interpreted that differently.  Danny felt like he needed to shut down for 2 weeks because that is really what they were asked to do.  Other dentists didn't shut down which we totally get.  He felt bad that he shut down an

Originally, we were looking for homes closer to Northgate.  It is the same middle and high school as Woodlands the a little bigger homes.  We put an offer on Comanche that was already in contract.  The more I thought about it, the more I realized how convenient it would be with working and living in the same neighborhood.  Convenient for the kids to ride back and forth to our home and pool, convenient for me to bike or run to the pool, amazing to be in my sisters neighborhood with a smaller elementary school which might be really nice for my kids.  We looked at some homes which Danny hated.  I get it because I looked at a couple homes in Northgate, some really nice, that I just didn't like.  I left one that was so nice but I hated it. I felt a horrible feeling.  I knew it just wasn't right.   I am so grateful for prayer.  I prayed to be guided and knew we were being guided.  What was most important?  A home where my family would be happy and surrounded by great relationships

I wish my parents were still alive.  If they were alive, I am certain they would be able to relate to parenting Parker.  Relate to how tiring it is to raise him, how he is always on the go, relate to his outbursts of emotion and also relate to the incredible things he can do.  They joked that they stopped because of me. In reality, I am sure that if miscarriages and horrible pregnancies weren't their reality they would have had more kids. Being my parent was difficult.  There was a reason I went from school, to gymnastics, to the pool, to soccer.  There was a reason I was suspended in elementary school.  There was a reason I didn't have many friends as a kid.  I never remember being tired.  In contrast, activities game me energy.  Being with people gave me energy.  In some ways, I am the same today.  I could always go.  I was impulsive and reactionary.  I was a difficult kid.  I was Parker.  As I listen to podcasts and do research on ADHD, I feel I have learned so much about m